I am beginning to come to grips with the possibility that Brian could.

Die.

If it did happen I think it would affect me in one way or another. It would cause an amount of pain I’m sure.

Sometimes I do like to pretend that what happens on the show is real. As in, Seeing Brian on TV is the only way I get to see him alive.

What they do with him on the show does impact how I feel about him. There have been episodes (very few) that cause me to loose my grip on reality and cry for him.

I think if he was to die on TV, I would die a little inside.

Because I love him.

I really do love him.